Monday again!

MIL is coming down this afternoon to stay for a couple of nights.
Thankfully the house is in pretty good condition, got the majority of cleaning done on saturday, and last little bits of tidying up done last night.
Just need to vacumn today, and sweep up outside and I'm done! Oh and do a couple of loads of laundry and go grocery shopping lol

I love having things tidy, makes me feel good about myself, I have fallen into the trap of letting housework go for so long, I am enjoying being on top of it :) Hope it continues!!

Went through Laurens baby clothes yesterday *gush*, even if this baby is a boy I think its set for the first 3 months of life with gender neutral clothing, and even a couple of items that Lauren never wore as they were a bit too boyish.
If this baby is a girl, its set for life hehe

Was getting all gushy looking at the 0000 wondersuits *happy sigh*

Ok off to do those things!

Rotten couple of days

The last 2 days I have been soooo exhausted, and have had a very short fuse. It felt like (today especially) Lauren was pushing my buttons so much. Snapped at her so many times today, felt like evil witch mummy.

Tomorrow I am having some much needed time off, going to the movies with mum, doing some window shopping, having lunch out, maybe something decadent. Some time to recharge.

So hopefully next post I will have recharged and done loads of LOs hehe

Tagged by Stacey

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next three sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favourite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.
6. Tag fivethree other people to do the same.

Not until we have reliable diagnostic tests will it be possible to assess the true incidence of milk induced colic, and the true relationship between protein intolerances and sugar intolerances. Milk sugar, or lactose intolerance, is becoming more readily diagnosed since a cheap way of measuring levels of sugars in the baby's stools was developed. But lactose intolerance can be both a symptom - a result of earlier milk protein intolerance damaging the gut - or a cause of milk-protein intolerance.

Crying Baby, Sleepless Nights, How to overcome baby's sleep problems - and get some sleep yourself Sandy Jones

Ok I tag Alissa, Kate & Chris!

So proud of me

I am the first to admit I am a slack housekeeper, well I am good at keeping the house messy.
But lately I have been on top of things :) It feels great.
Not unheard of in this house for dishes to be left till next day, clean dishes in dishwasher not put away, so dirty dishes pile up.

Not anymore, I am determined to make this a habit, every night stacking dishwasher putting it on, washing any dishes that can't go in the dishwasher, wiping down benches & stovetop.
Sweeping floor.
Picking up stuff from lounge and wiping dining table.
It is SUCH a nice feeling to go to bed with the house tidy, knowing that when I get up in the morning the kitchen bench is clear and I don't have to wash any dishes. Makes my head much less cluttered.

Now if only I could work out how to get laundry to fold itself and go into the right drawers, and to stop the computer room floor from attracting 'stuff'

Now its beddy bye times, cause I know my girl will be up with the lorikeets *and* I am determined to go for a walk tomorrow :)
G'night!!

Updated pregnancy blog

http://tweedledee.vox.com/

:)

Monday

So its monday again.
Off to HMA (Homebirth Support Group) today, which I am looking foward to :) I like connecting to other women with similar views and beliefs as me :) A friend with her 3 week old bubba is hoping to come *excited*

So Damien the slack ass didn't vacumn yesterday, so I guess I will be doing that today! Also didn't do the 'pick up', so something else I will be doing today. At least kitchen/dishes are done.

So list for today

• Pick up 'stuff'
• Do vacuuming that Damien didn't do grrrr
• Mop
• Bake choc chip cookies all before 9am woooot!
  

Yay for short list ;)

Don't really have any scrapping mojo atm *sigh*

Sunday!

Today we are off to something call the platypus festival Click if you are interested
So that will see us out of the house for a few hours, should be interesting :D
But of course I still have a list!

So most of yesterdays list has carried over as well as adding a few things:

• Finish cleaning oven & racksTHANK GOODNESS
  
• Put on last load of washing, get 2 in.
  
• Get Damien to vacumn
• Put single bed up in play room and rearrange
• Do pick up of 'stuff'
  

A list for Saturday

So last night I started cleaning the oven lol, today going to finish it (I dont use the nasty caustic chemically stuff, so lots of elbow grease hehe)

• Finish cleaning oven & racks
• Tidy Laurens room
• Do umpteen loads of washing and hang out 2 down, one in machine and one yet ot be washed
• Clean bathrooms/toilets2.21pm
• Get Damien to vacumn
• Grocery shopping .. KID FREE!!

That'll do it

*gasp* A POST

Well yes posts have been few & far between, I'm a slackass what can I say.
So all my baby type posts are here on my vox blog.

SO I need to do updates about me & Lauren.

Lauren, gosh where do I start, some days she is a normal 2.5year old and then she opens her mouth, I feel like I am having conversations with some one much older. Her vocab is amazing, and scary. She understands and can vocalise so much.
She is a firecracker, a frustrating, independent (some days, others days its 'help me')beautiful, amazing, cheeky little girl.. I love her so much, and on some days are endlessly frustrated.

She is *finally* going to sleep without booby, mainly because it was hurting too much with pregnancy. I never thought I would see the day tbh, but now we read stories, then lights go out I sing, rub her back, tell her Princess Lauren stories and she rolls over and goes to sleep its bliss, and if she wakes during the night (not often) she cuddles back to sleep as well, at first it was "booobiieeeee" but now has accepted she doesn't have any till she wakes up. When she does wake up (usually btwn 5-6) she has some then, but its not for very long.

I was feeling so terrible that the end of our breastfeeding relationship was so negative, I was HATING breastfeeding, it hurt, I had a real aversion to it. Not that I love it anymore, but I can tolerate it for a short while, I want the last feeds to be comfy not with me going "GET OFF GET OFF"

Where am I at. Pregnant! hehe Doing ok, I *was* on top of hte housework, but it takes one night of slack sleep and it has taken over again. Hopefully I can get back on top of it again. Feeling pretty good, although I have run out of MultiV's, I walked for a couple of mornings, but the last two havent happened *slack* I feel so great when I go for a morning walk.

I am scrapping again! Loving it :D
My latest:
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List of things I should get done today:

• Put away clean washing
• Put away maternity clothes(in closet)
• Put away clothes I no longer fit & summer clothes
• Put shredded paper in recycle bin cause I know I wont remember to take to pet store
• Pick up crap from floor of computer room
• Put dishwasher on
• Tidy/clean kitchen
• Clean bathrooms
• Change linen on beds

There that should do it

Should do a proper post

But alll I have to offer atm is another LO :)
I tried to add words to this one but nup simple again :)

Credit: Tracy ann 'Flop' papers

Another one :o

Very very simple, but I just couldnt do anything else with it.
Credit:
Flower rub on - "Winter Chick" @ the ShabbyShoppe
Sanded overlay by Christine Smith

Gah! It needs a border, will do that tomorrow, too tired tonight.

A Layout! :O

OMG!

Credit:
'Winter Chic' @ the ShabbyShoppe

Its about time

What with christmas, and pregnancy I just seem to not update.
I have no morning sickness, but i have alll day indigestion (no heartburn) which is mega frustrating, and the tiredness .. ohh the tiredness.

We just spent thur-sun up at the ILs, was nice, I got to relax a lot and just read (Mills & Boon lol) while the ILs or Damien entertained Lauren

Damien is back to work tomorrow, I am not looking forward to it :( I have really found it helpful having him at home to tend to Lauren (when she will let him)

I cannot wait for the 2nd trimester, surely this tiredness and crappy belly will have to ease off a bit?? Have Damien & ILs asking me when I'm going to the doctor .. what for? I say I'm not sick. I may make an appt soonish and get some blood tests just to check levels and stuff .. maybe .. and get a 12 weeks scan if I have any pointers to this being a double pregnancy. Lauren is still adamant that there are two babies in my belly.

Need to ring a midwife too *blush* Should really get moving on that.

Life is just plodding along. Nothing of excitement happening .. mores the pity!
Some recent photos of Lauren

December
January

Oh and a screenshot from Betty .. my 20inch iMac

Rest In Peace Dad

I have had a rollercoaster 29 hours.

I got a phone call to say my father had passed away yesterday afternoon, after many tears and not being able to reach Damien I then got another phone call to say that he wasn't actually dead but in a drug-induced coma.

So many conflicting emotions, anger, sadness, confusion.

My uncle rang and confirmed the drug-induced coma, induced because of the intense pain Dad was in, it was only a matter of time, he suggested I ring the hospice and they could possibly put the phone up to his ear so I could tell him of my pregnancy, the fact that I hadn't yet told him had devastated me.

I rang the hospice and my cousin held the phone up to his ear, it was so very hard, but I told him of my pregnancy, that I loved him, and said goodbye.

I got a lot of closure from that phone call. I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to talk to him, even though he couldn't answer, I heard his breathing change and I *know* he heard me.

I got a phone call from my uncle and Dad passed away tonight. He was in a bit of pain near the end so I *know* that he is so much better off now, and is at peace.

I feel such peace, and relief.

Love and light Dad, may you now rest in peace.

Sooooo

Santa Photo

At least she wasnt as freaked out as she was last year :)

Yet another very late update

Trip to NZ was ok, didn't get to spend as much time with Dad as i wanted, Lauren didnt cope well with it all, the people coming & going, change etc she was a brat, I was exhausted but I did get to spend time with Dad :)

He improved so much over the time that we were there, and from speaking to him since he sounds a lot stronger which is great because it means he can enjoy the time he has left, he is a fighter so maybe he will stick around for a while to torment us ;)

We are trying to conceive #2 atm, the first three nights in NZ lauren had HEAPS of boob and I know that distrupted my cycle, so I was feeling positive until my cycle ended up with a luteal phase of only 7 days *sigh*, I am cutting Lauren back on the boob and hoping this cycle is more fruitful.

I am getting one of these *pets* 20inch iMac *drools*

Going to get it on the myer card in teh new year, maybe get it cheaper in any post xmas sales.
Cannot believe how little time there is left to xmas *panics*

Bought a few things at the oxfam store yesterday, i LOVE that store, could spend a fortune.
Got this necklace, I love her, so does Lauren :) Also got a wallet and a couple of xmas gifts.



Ok some Lauren cuteness to finish off

An Update

Sorry it has been so long, living in a fog atm, and trying to recover from camping.
Not up to a big post about the camping trip, but it wasnt what I had hoped :(

So my Dad only has months, maybe up to a year to live. :( :( :(
Lauren, Mum & I fly over tomorrow morning going to make the most of the time we spend with him.

Its just so unfair. I had a big bawl up at camping when I heard the news, I think I was in a bit of shock too, like I hadn't let myself believe it was all true until I heard those words. I am so thankful I was surrounded by friends.

I am sick with a cold atm which triples the ickyness of everything.
Will update more when I get back.
xxxx

Update

Mum, Lauren & I are booked to fly over to see dad on Nov17th -25th.
A group of my friends, wonderful wonderful ladies that they are got together and raised over $600 ot help me fly over to see my dad :( *cries* I am just so in awe of them, so very lucky to have them in my life.

I rang Dad today, he sounded awful, really drugged up on the morphine. *sigh*

I am not letting myself worry or get anxious though as it was really makin gme feel sick, and not helping either of us. Will find out more after the 7th (when he has appt with encology team)

Next week (monday - saturday)I am going camping with another great group of women & kids, really looking forward to it :D

Prayers/Positive thoughts needed for my Dad

My Dad only has one kidney, lost one to cancer when he was 18. He has been having problems for the last year and just yesterday has been diagnosed with secondary cancer of the remaining kidney.

They don't know where the primary cancer is. I only found out this afternoon when my brother rang me. It isnt sounding very good, but I am trying ot think positive, as is Dad. They are unsure of what course of action they are going to take from now, so its bascially a waiting game.

So if you could please spare a thought or a prayer for my dad it would be really appreciated

ETA: Its actually his liver that the secondary cancer is in, have recently found out that tha tis bad, I didnt want to accept how bad it is, yk, I . .just dont know what to think.